I was sharing my life story with Mr. Wong, and it was painful just talking about it.
He found out that I not able to be Happy, and lack of Passion in Life..
There seems to be having program of Pessimistic and Depression and Fear and may get into mental issues. There were few issues where I would like to discover in this session:
My life Mission.
Unclear how to run my life.
Do not wanted to work.
Wanted to upgrade my mind.
Being Passive and want control by others.
Having Victim program
Mood swing.
Fear mood inside and outside.
Cover up- Hidden myself.
Find Myself
Being people’s target
Loss confident.
Belief that I have Curse.
Belief that the whole is unfair to me.
Clear Past life issue.
Be active and Alive being.
From a mediation Mr. Wong took me to see what is really bothering me.
I discovered there were 4 emotions sitting on my heart, they were running my emotions, one person changing emotions from 1 to 2 to 3 to 4 back to 1, like the traffic lights.
1. Laughter emotion-has a red hat draft man, always laughing and cannot stop.
I asked why you laughing he said the world is of funny and you are funnier, and he laugh away. I asked how can I help you? He told me not to stop him from laughing.
2. Crying emotion- has a gray hat draft man, always crying and cannot stop.
I asked why you crying he said I m selling matches, as it is cold they can light a fire to warm themselves but no one buy my matches, and it is raining now, the matches are all wet now, even God discourage me, and not allow me to sell the matches. He was crying harder, I asked how can I help you? He told me not to pity him, let him be sorry and sad.
3. Sleeping emotion-has green hat draft man always sleepy and tired. I asked why you sleeping on the street? He said he is very tired I can sleep anywhere; how can I help you? He told me not to bother him, let him rest and sleep.
4. Fear emotion- has yellow hat draft man always in fear and shaking. I asked why you in fear and shaking? He said is very scared and afraid and cannot stop shaking. I how can I help you? He said don’t stop me from shaking, I m releasing my fear by shaking it out my fear.
Later I discover that these emotions needed my attention and Love. And I spoken to each Emotion accordingly.
Dear Laugher man, sorry I not aware of you and never understand you why you keep laughing, now I know that you are so upset with this World and laugh at silly things people do, and you cannot help not laughing at them. You laugh at me because you felt so sorry for me being lost and have no emotion but to laugh to release your sadness to me being so lost,
I now hear you and you not have to laugh on me, as now I understand, thank you for showing me this, you can now laugh anytime you are Happy.
Dear Crying man, sorry I not aware of you and never understand you why you keep crying, now I know that you wanted to do good deed for People, but people not respect or care for your love for them, and when the World Rain on you, your belief even the Universe think I m a waste of time to love people with no heart, and felt alone and cold on the street. Thank you for showing me this you can now cry anytime as I know you wanted my Love and care, when you cry, I will feel the love you give me, and I’m protected and in joy.
Dear Sleepy man, sorry I not aware of you, and never understand why you keep sleepy, now I know that you wanted me to hug and sleep with you and give you time to companion you, when you are tired and sleepy, I will always be with you, hug you and hold you so you feel safe and noise.
Dear Fear man, sorry I not aware of you and never understand you why so fearful, now I know that you wanted me to be with you as you are in fear in the Thunder, you see the Thunders falling from the sky, and you are very scared, I will always be with you, hold you and hug you so you feel safe and release from the fear. I will go to the universe to find the guy who send the Thunder and tell him to stop so you never be in Fear.
I went to the Universe and ask who is throwing the Thunders to the Earth I will tell him to stop immediately. I asked a monkey, have he seem that man, he said yes, it is a big man with white beard, keep throwing the thunders even he is scared. He even throw at me and I m scared too. I asked what did you do that you made him so angry and throw the thunders on you? I just ate the bun on the Alter and he was mad at me, he told me to take care of the Alter not eat the bun on the alter, you not listen to my instruction. And he said I broken the Law. He asks me if I belief him? I said yes, as it is just a misunderstanding and to forgive you.
I went to find the Man who throw the thunders, and saw Him big on the sky and in the Roman Age clothing, I send love and told the man that it was a misunderstanding, the monkey felt judged, and unwilling to accept his fault, he felt guilty and scared of thunders throw on the floor, it scared him and my fear too…
The Big man ask do you know who he was? I would not know but I belief he is God, only God can fly on the sky and hold thunders without fear. And when I look clearly it was the old me talking. the anger was about me getting mad on things. And firing around my emotions, and scared everyone. I promise myself next time I not get angry so I not get fear and see the matter in a bigger picture. I told the monkey about it and I promise I will not get angry with him and love him, and he was very happy. I ask where my anger came from can you help me to find him.. he took me to the stomach department, that is the cell memory in charge of my anger.
There I saw 2 tunnels connected into one tube and I saw some black beans falling from the left side of the tunnel and white beans falling to the right tunnel, into the mixer trying to digest the beans. It says right and wrong matters it is not to blame yourself first, you see the whole truth and don’t blame yourself, study the matter, pause, and see it in a bigger picture. Forgive yourself if you made a mistake, but not to blame yourself for any wrong. Life is just a Game, not need to get angry and harm your body. Take it Easy. See the Truth in Life, then take action, no one will punish you, it is not a Sin. The Monkey is your Mentor.
Conclusion:
Be clear the right and wrong is not important, always remember to love yourself forgive yourself, balance your Emotions.
I choose to do, not others tell me to do.
Right knee asks you to confirm that the coming years I will be Good.
Now I know I can walk my path. I have to belief I have a good life in front of me.
Horus Eye, is my right Knee. Do not worry for the future, make yourself Happy, forget yourself.
My heart and the stomach hide under my tears which cover my Eyes. My Anger can make your body in Fear and Shake.
